• elle

When Butt Stuff *Isn't*

I have to be radically honest.

As it goes, weird shit happens to me.

I have had so many random medical stuff happen to me that I have lost track on how many ER visits I've been through that wind up in surgery or a new med is prescribed.

This week was nothing different.

And the guilt I have for it is...silly.

I feel awful when I need to cancel sessions.

Cancelling and rescheduling appointments is my least favorite thing to do.

Not only are you expecting a great time, I am expecting transactions to support me financially, too.

So not being able to work hits my heart in a multitude of ways.

This week I had to have a surprise procedure on a *very* sensitive part of my body that I talk about with all of you on a regular butt!

It's embarrassing. It's gross. But this is my beautiful body and beautiful bodies do gross and embarrassing things sometimes.

I want to spare the details, but I also just want to be honest. So please know, that when I don't respond to emails, or I don't respond to texts, I HATE IT. It's setting boundaries that I know need to exist, but I understand how frustrating it can be on the client's end, too. No one deserves to be ignored outright. This and last week, if you have felt ignored, I apologize.

I was dealing with a very painful blood clot in my rectum and needed a semi-emergency procedure done to treat it. I was scared. I was crying every day this week. And now I am healing...but still very much in active discomfort and taking as many naps as I can.

From the bottom of my heart, I am so grateful I could weep about how kind all of you have been to me over the years when shit goes bonkers.

I guess I am now a somewhat experienced expert on hemorrhoids! So that's a win for a sex educator, right?? Laugh with me, please! If all we have after frustration is laugher, so BE IT! We all deal with pains in the ass sometimes...(from the m